Starting Over
For the first time in 40 years, I'm about to live by myself (with my 16 yr old daughter) without a man in my life. You see, I've been married for 11 years. We've been together 15 next month. For the past 5 years, I've slowly fallen out of love. Not only with my husband, but with myself. I don't know who I am anymore. I've become a recluse in my own home. I rarely do anything that requires me to leave the house. I hate the me I have become. I'm depressed and unhappy. I certainly don't love who I have become. So, I am leaving my husband. Embarking on a new journey of self discovery. I want to learn about me. What things I truly like and don't. I'm going to try new things and really give it my all to see if I can find activities that really do bring me joy. I want to discover things about myself I never knew. I just want to love me again. I'm terrified of this new journey. My anxiety is through the roof and it hasn't even started yet...